Starting Fresh

Ah! A new semester and new roomies! How fun! So much has happened since last semester and definitely since I have written last semester. I must say, I am grateful the New Year came before the semester so I could make some new goals, and so far, I have lived up to them. I am really trying hard to prepare myself for the things of life and the obscure future. I really have no idea what is happening to me, other than God is at the helm. I don't know my bearings or where I am headed, but I know he does. This semester I will have to be better at studying for long periods of time, because I won't have anytime for much else! I'm kinda scared about the whole thing, but I know God has blessed me with a mind that can handle it. One of my professors even told me I could probably test out of her class early and receive an "A". We'll see how that goes.
I am just excited to learn and grow. The spirit on the campus is overwhelming. It is a feeling that is not obtainable anywhere else. It is just different. It is not the kind you can get at the temple or in sacrament meetings, not the kind that you get while visiting church history sites, but it is from the same source. I can feel the blessings from being here. Already my mind has made connections and retained information that I by myself could not have done - have never done before! I am eternally grateful. I know I'm being blessed.
I have also made a goal to serve more than I have in the past. I hope I can get to the point where I don't have a selfish thought in one whole day. I have such a long way to go. Just struggling with a goal like that reminds me how much we need Christ's atonement in our lives. I am eternally indebted to him. Sometimes I half-wish that I wouldn't be blessed for righteous action just so I can catch up, but I know that is not how it works. It can't work like that, or God would cease to be God, our loving, perfect Father in Heaven who will never leave us alone. He will never abandon us. And so we trust in Him. He, the most perfect being, knows what is best for us and will open up opportunities for us. I have seen that and rely on that maybe more than I should. I am continually searching and listening. I've learned that is all I can do at this point in my life. But it is certainly enough! :)