We are still putting our noses to the grindstone! What can I say? School has taken a huge precedence over our life, as we just got through mid-terms and are trying to get through the remainder of the semester. But in being so busy we have not forgotten the important things like family scripture study and prayer and our "pillow talk."
Pillow talk is a term we once heard at a ward fireside describing how a couple would finally get into bed together and just talk about their day and tell each other they love the other - especially if they were busy during the day. My husband and I reminisce about how when we were single we used to stay up until odd hours of the night talking. Oddly, some things haven't changed (except that we do go to bed earlier)!
Recently I got called into my ward's Primary Presidency. We haven't had much time to do a lot together yet, because we had ward conference consecutively followed by stake conference, but we have met together and started making small changes to meet the needs of our student ward. Formerly, we trumped the larges nursery in our student stake (we happen to have a lot of older married couples in our ward), but now we have been encountering some changes that have reduced the size of the nursery (thus we are making some changes). I have been thankful for this calling, not only because children are so darn cute, but because I think the Lord knew that I needed to be involved more. This has been something I have been thinking about.
I tend to have a reserved personality and am content most of the time to only offer my assistance if I see a need. For some reason, I have to be certain that there is a need before I fulfill it. I don't normally assert myself if I don't think it necessary at the time. For example, we were sitting in church and a mother of two was struggling to keep both her children entertained during the meeting. I was sitting a few rows in back of her and observing her cute children, when to my (and the congregation's) dismay, her toddler fell over and hit the pew in front of him. The mother immediately picked him up and started rocking him. I know this child, and the boy is a tank. He can fall over steps of stairs and get up in a second. No problem. But this time he did start to cry and she rocked him back and forth. I observed that if she could not go out into the foyer with her child, because that would mean she had to leave her other baby unattended. But I wasn't sure if she wanted to go into the hall. I though about rushing up there and holding her baby for her, but it seemed that the boy was handling the fall pretty well. I thought I would offer my assitance if the child's crying didn't subside, or got louder. I was waiting for some sign that would compel me to act. Then a girl I know got up from her pew in front of the pew and did what I was considering. She just did it. And the mother was able to get up and carry her child out.
I felt very ashamed after this experience. I had let uncertainty dictate my choices, and I was waiting for something to necessitate my actions. I should have just risen to the occassion like the girl in front of me. This experience prodded some thinking on my part. I am reminded of the parable of the talents (Matthew 25: 14-30). Often we view this parable as a parable about talents, such as musical abilities, hobbies, athletic achievements, etc. All of these are good and commendable. I think we should develop all that God has given us. But this being a parable, I am not opposed to looking into multiple meanings. In Matthew 25, the Savior prefaced the parable of the talents by telling the parable of the ten virgins. We know that the oil that allowed the five wise virgins to light the way for them to join the wedding party was testimony. Spencer W. Kimball said of this testimony, "In our lives the oil of preparedness is accumulated drop by drop in righteous living" (Faith Precedes the Miracle, 256). We can gather from this that it is righteous living that our Heavenly Father cares about. It is through building his kingdom that our testimonies are strengthened and the testimonies of others are strengthened as well. Concerning talents, do we not have talents and abilities for the purpose of sharing them? They certainly are not for us to hoard away. They are for the building of His kingdom. I believe the message of the parable of the talents was to illustrate the statement, "to whom much is given, much is required" (Doctrine and Covenants 82:3). To name a few, I have been given the gospel of Jesus Christ. I have been given a wonderful family who raised me well. I have been given a wonderful husband who loves me and can support me in my achievements.
Could I really believe that all these things were given to me to benefit me alone? Surely not. These blessings are not mine to begin with. How would I face my God and tell him that the talents he gave me were spent on myself and that I did not invest my talents to the "exchanges" so the Lord could have received some "usury" (Matthew 25:27)? And I know that if I give of myself, I will be blessed with more ability to bless others more. If I fill my lamp, then I am prepared to light the way for others. We have all been given so much. If we do not develop what we have been given it can all be taken away. "For whosoever hath [developed his talents], to him shall be given, and he shall have more abundance: but whosoever hath not [developed his talents], from him shall be taken away even that he hath"(Matthew 25:29, Matthew 13:12).
At last, I have decided to make a better effort in sharing myself. I have already taken the initiative a few times this week, and I can promise, the spirit's influence in my life is even stronger. This perpetuates even more faith, which will allow me to build even more blocks of faith on these new blocks. I am overcome with gratitude for my testimony in my Lord, Jesus Christ, for making it possible for us to return to Him. A way for us has been provided. We must simply follow the path. I am thankful for the influence of the Holy Ghost which can help us fill our lamps and have the courage and insight to help those around us. Truly, we are Never Alone.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Entreat the Spirit
I realize it has been a while since I have written about my husband and me. I suppose that is because there is not much to report. We are just enjoying our routine life. We are both taking classes, happy, and busy! But I guess that is normal. I wouldn't say our life it tedious, but it is regular, with a fixed schedule and routine.
I wanted just to say a few words about this life style, since it is typical of most people. We get into the "swing of things" and we are living the same day every day, week to week, month to month, (for us semester to semester). There is nothing wrong with this in of itself, but there is the tendency for us to think that our days are so familiar to us that nothing can change. Consequently, we let our guard down. If we have never been in trouble before then why would we get into trouble now? This is an association fallacy. Because we associate our day with the other days we have lived, we assume that this day will be no different than the others!
In Alma 15 we hear about a "great check" among the people (vs 17). What is a great check? It means the people checked themselves from time to time. They knew that over a duration of time their way of life could and would morph if they didn't keep it in check. It says that the people were "checked as to the pride of their hearts, and began to humble themselves before God."
I'd like to draw upon another example in the scriptures. In Helaman we read about the capture of Zarahemla. Now how does a Lamanite army manage to waltz into the center of the Nephite land and capture their capital city? It says in verse 18 that it was because the Nephites didn't have "sufficient guard in the land of Zarahemla; for they had supposed that the Lamanites durst not come into the heart of their lands to attack that great city Zarahemla." So it would seem that when they thought they were safe, they were the most vulnerable.
This is why we need to listen to the men in the watchtower (a.k.a. the prophets - past and present) and keep a constant watch on ourselves. We must vigilantly safegaurd ourselves by praying and reading the scriptures (Sunday School answers). We need to be doing these things regularly and with intent; exercising our faith. If we pray daily, we are promised eternal life. "...when thou liest down at night lie down unto the Lord, that he may watch over you in your sleep; and when thou risest in the morning let thy heart be full of thanks unto God; and if ye do these things, ye shall be lifted up at the last day" (Alma 37:37). We need that constant help. Just when we are too comfortable, we may think we don't need the help. Oh, but that is when we are most vulnerable to the most malicious of predators - those who wish to possess our soul.
Daily scripture study is also imperative to our personal defense. "It is certain that one who studies the scriptures every day accomplishes far more than one who devotes considerable time one day and then lets days go by before continuing. Not only should we study each day, but there should be a regular time set aside when we can concentrate without interference...The important thing is to allow nothing else to interfere with our study" (Howard W. Hunter).
In this wise, we will Never be left Alone to fight the battle - the battle that is ever present. In the armor of God there is only one offensive weapon: the sword. This particular sword represents the Spirit, which is the word of God (Ephesians 6:17). When we read our scripture we are becoming familiar with the word of God and when we sincerly pray we are beckoning the spirit to be with us. This companion - this great gift from our Father - can help us discern traps, equipped with a single flaxen chord, before we walk right into them. This invaluable ally must be sincerely sought. David A. Bednar, in this last Conference said: "We more readily receive and recognize the Spirit of the Lord as we appropriately invite Him into our lives. We cannot compel, coerce, or command the Holy Ghost. Rather, we should invite Him into our lives with the same gentleness and tenderness by which He entreats us."
I testify that this is true. We need to be steadily aware of our weaknesses, our follies, and our character that is so often subject to error. If we are aware of these things we will be more dependent on Christ and our Heavenly Father. We will develop a close bond with him. We will be able to cultivate His Spirit in our homes. We will feel a closeness to our Savior. We will not doubt where we stand with God. I testify T\these eternal ties will lift us up at the last day.
I wanted just to say a few words about this life style, since it is typical of most people. We get into the "swing of things" and we are living the same day every day, week to week, month to month, (for us semester to semester). There is nothing wrong with this in of itself, but there is the tendency for us to think that our days are so familiar to us that nothing can change. Consequently, we let our guard down. If we have never been in trouble before then why would we get into trouble now? This is an association fallacy. Because we associate our day with the other days we have lived, we assume that this day will be no different than the others!
In Alma 15 we hear about a "great check" among the people (vs 17). What is a great check? It means the people checked themselves from time to time. They knew that over a duration of time their way of life could and would morph if they didn't keep it in check. It says that the people were "checked as to the pride of their hearts, and began to humble themselves before God."
I'd like to draw upon another example in the scriptures. In Helaman we read about the capture of Zarahemla. Now how does a Lamanite army manage to waltz into the center of the Nephite land and capture their capital city? It says in verse 18 that it was because the Nephites didn't have "sufficient guard in the land of Zarahemla; for they had supposed that the Lamanites durst not come into the heart of their lands to attack that great city Zarahemla." So it would seem that when they thought they were safe, they were the most vulnerable.
This is why we need to listen to the men in the watchtower (a.k.a. the prophets - past and present) and keep a constant watch on ourselves. We must vigilantly safegaurd ourselves by praying and reading the scriptures (Sunday School answers). We need to be doing these things regularly and with intent; exercising our faith. If we pray daily, we are promised eternal life. "...when thou liest down at night lie down unto the Lord, that he may watch over you in your sleep; and when thou risest in the morning let thy heart be full of thanks unto God; and if ye do these things, ye shall be lifted up at the last day" (Alma 37:37). We need that constant help. Just when we are too comfortable, we may think we don't need the help. Oh, but that is when we are most vulnerable to the most malicious of predators - those who wish to possess our soul.
Daily scripture study is also imperative to our personal defense. "It is certain that one who studies the scriptures every day accomplishes far more than one who devotes considerable time one day and then lets days go by before continuing. Not only should we study each day, but there should be a regular time set aside when we can concentrate without interference...The important thing is to allow nothing else to interfere with our study" (Howard W. Hunter).
In this wise, we will Never be left Alone to fight the battle - the battle that is ever present. In the armor of God there is only one offensive weapon: the sword. This particular sword represents the Spirit, which is the word of God (Ephesians 6:17). When we read our scripture we are becoming familiar with the word of God and when we sincerly pray we are beckoning the spirit to be with us. This companion - this great gift from our Father - can help us discern traps, equipped with a single flaxen chord, before we walk right into them. This invaluable ally must be sincerely sought. David A. Bednar, in this last Conference said: "We more readily receive and recognize the Spirit of the Lord as we appropriately invite Him into our lives. We cannot compel, coerce, or command the Holy Ghost. Rather, we should invite Him into our lives with the same gentleness and tenderness by which He entreats us."
I testify that this is true. We need to be steadily aware of our weaknesses, our follies, and our character that is so often subject to error. If we are aware of these things we will be more dependent on Christ and our Heavenly Father. We will develop a close bond with him. We will be able to cultivate His Spirit in our homes. We will feel a closeness to our Savior. We will not doubt where we stand with God. I testify T\these eternal ties will lift us up at the last day.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
The Goldsmith's Face
Refinement is an interesting word. In society, when some one is "high class" they may be boast this quality of refinement (ok "refined lady" may be a little old-fashioned, but bear with me). They are in essence,getting rid of all that is not acceptable in such a society. They are not coarse or vulgar. They are genteel, elegant, and polite. They are subtle and discriminate (according to the dictionary). This could also mean that they are discriminate in what traits they should adopt. So, through their discrimination they are free from impurities, and they are purified.
Though, in the scriptures, refinement is symbolically represented by a purging of precious metals, the concept is the same. In the Bible, Book of Mormon and D&C, the refiner's fie is purging and making pure. As we are being purged, we are also setting at naught all those things that re not of God. We are being discriminate. But there is a process by which we do this. To be refined, it seems that we have to go through a lot of heat. In Isaiah 48:10, the scripture indicates that refinement may be brought about by affliction.
God knows that by trials we grow stronger. He wants us to return to him, so he sometimes allows trials to come upon us. Trials can do 1 of 2 things:They can bring us closer to God, or they can repel us further away. What distinguishes between the two is not the nature of the trial, but our own nature. We are the deciding factor. It is my hope that through our tribulation we would be brought closer to Christ. Through our trials, we may become stronger. This is illustrated in John 15:2. The branch that brings forth (good) fruit will be purged so that it may bring forth more fruit. There is a purpose in our afflictions. James E. Faust said, "There is a divine purpose in the adversities we encounter every day. They prepare, they purge they purify, and thus they bless." Through our trials we can bring forth more good fruit - more good qualities and refinement.
In this I do not meant to say that God will show forth his wrath in the attempt to purge us. No, He is not an afflicting God. President Joseph F. Smith taught that, "It is a feeble thought to believe that the illness and affliction that come to us are attributable either to the mercy or the displeasure of God." We see this illustrated int he story of Job int he Bible. Satan comes before the Lord and says that God has prospered Job for his obedience, but he suspects that if God did not "hedge about him" (shelter him from affliction) he would curse God. He proposes a plan: "But put forth thine hand now, and touch all that he hath, and he will curse thee to thy face." Now read closely the Lord's reply: "Behold, all that he hath is in thy power; only upon himself put not forth thine hand." See how the Lord did not curse Job? He merely granted permission to the dragon to -well- basically create havoc.
So it is with us. At times, the Lord will simply lift his arm of protection. But it will all work together for our good (D&C 122:7). Again, it is not the nature of the trial that brings us closer to God, but out nature. One great example of this is one of my favorite stories. One Sunday meeting, a group of people were criticizing the Martin and Willie Handcart companies because they left too late in the season. They seemed to think that because they left so late, they were responsible for the many deaths along the trail. One man in the back was quiet. Then he arose calmly, but with emotion in his face revealed that he had been a member of the Martin Handcart company. He proceeded to explain that through the hard times he had been a recipient of help from the angels. He had learned how to be stalwart. Then he said this: "Was I sorry that I chose to come by handcart? No. Neither then nor any minute of my life since. The price we paid to become acquainted with God was a privilege to pay, and I am thankful that I was privileged to come in the Martin Handcart Company." Wow. He just said that the price he paid was worth what he gained: to become acquainted with God. It reminds me of the King of the Lamanites that the missionary, Aaron taught. He said, "I will give all my sins to know thee. This brings me to my next point.
I personally think that the refiners fire is something internal, rather than external. I will explain further. Alma the younger had an experience with an angel and was "touched by an angel" (he he). He was unconscious for three days! But while he was still unresponsive to the world around him, his mother and father were rejoicing that their prayers were being answered! Why? Because his heart was being changed. He went through and internal battle. He saw the bitterness of his own sins. He realized he would rather cease to exist than to face God with all his impurities. But then he called on the name of Jesus. His heart was changed and he was forgiven. He had been through the refiner's fire. (see the story of Paul, Acts 22)
Take another example, Enos. In Enos 1:2, Enos explains that his experience was a "wrestle" that he had before God. He said his soul "hungered" (Enos 1:4) as he knelt down to pray. He prayed all day! a good 12 hours perhaps! And then his prayer was answered with a forgiveness of sins. And why did he receive a forgiveness of sins? Because of his faith on the Savior (Enos 1:8), he was purified.
I think we all have to go through our own internal struggles. This change may be invoked by our trials as we try to draw strength from them, but I believe the true refinement takes place in the deep chambers of our hearts. As we strive to know our Savior, we tend to become more like him, and we bring forth good fruit. Then we discover more impurities and allow God to purify us again. This pattern is a cycle we encounter until all of our dross is removed and all that is left is a pure metal. What happens at this point? The metal is so pure that the Goldsmith's face is reflected in us. We become so pure, that his continence shines in us. Our visage resembles his, so that the people who don't know Christ can know Him because they know us. It is an extraordinary thing. And all the while, the Goldsmith and master is keeping diligent watch over us and our progress. We are Never Alone in our refinement.
"That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ" (1 Peter 1:2). Let us seek to develop in us the gold that does not perish through the trial of our faith within ourselves so that we may be found pure at the appearing of Jesus Christ.
Though, in the scriptures, refinement is symbolically represented by a purging of precious metals, the concept is the same. In the Bible, Book of Mormon and D&C, the refiner's fie is purging and making pure. As we are being purged, we are also setting at naught all those things that re not of God. We are being discriminate. But there is a process by which we do this. To be refined, it seems that we have to go through a lot of heat. In Isaiah 48:10, the scripture indicates that refinement may be brought about by affliction.
God knows that by trials we grow stronger. He wants us to return to him, so he sometimes allows trials to come upon us. Trials can do 1 of 2 things:They can bring us closer to God, or they can repel us further away. What distinguishes between the two is not the nature of the trial, but our own nature. We are the deciding factor. It is my hope that through our tribulation we would be brought closer to Christ. Through our trials, we may become stronger. This is illustrated in John 15:2. The branch that brings forth (good) fruit will be purged so that it may bring forth more fruit. There is a purpose in our afflictions. James E. Faust said, "There is a divine purpose in the adversities we encounter every day. They prepare, they purge they purify, and thus they bless." Through our trials we can bring forth more good fruit - more good qualities and refinement.
In this I do not meant to say that God will show forth his wrath in the attempt to purge us. No, He is not an afflicting God. President Joseph F. Smith taught that, "It is a feeble thought to believe that the illness and affliction that come to us are attributable either to the mercy or the displeasure of God." We see this illustrated int he story of Job int he Bible. Satan comes before the Lord and says that God has prospered Job for his obedience, but he suspects that if God did not "hedge about him" (shelter him from affliction) he would curse God. He proposes a plan: "But put forth thine hand now, and touch all that he hath, and he will curse thee to thy face." Now read closely the Lord's reply: "Behold, all that he hath is in thy power; only upon himself put not forth thine hand." See how the Lord did not curse Job? He merely granted permission to the dragon to -well- basically create havoc.
So it is with us. At times, the Lord will simply lift his arm of protection. But it will all work together for our good (D&C 122:7). Again, it is not the nature of the trial that brings us closer to God, but out nature. One great example of this is one of my favorite stories. One Sunday meeting, a group of people were criticizing the Martin and Willie Handcart companies because they left too late in the season. They seemed to think that because they left so late, they were responsible for the many deaths along the trail. One man in the back was quiet. Then he arose calmly, but with emotion in his face revealed that he had been a member of the Martin Handcart company. He proceeded to explain that through the hard times he had been a recipient of help from the angels. He had learned how to be stalwart. Then he said this: "Was I sorry that I chose to come by handcart? No. Neither then nor any minute of my life since. The price we paid to become acquainted with God was a privilege to pay, and I am thankful that I was privileged to come in the Martin Handcart Company." Wow. He just said that the price he paid was worth what he gained: to become acquainted with God. It reminds me of the King of the Lamanites that the missionary, Aaron taught. He said, "I will give all my sins to know thee. This brings me to my next point.
I personally think that the refiners fire is something internal, rather than external. I will explain further. Alma the younger had an experience with an angel and was "touched by an angel" (he he). He was unconscious for three days! But while he was still unresponsive to the world around him, his mother and father were rejoicing that their prayers were being answered! Why? Because his heart was being changed. He went through and internal battle. He saw the bitterness of his own sins. He realized he would rather cease to exist than to face God with all his impurities. But then he called on the name of Jesus. His heart was changed and he was forgiven. He had been through the refiner's fire. (see the story of Paul, Acts 22)
Take another example, Enos. In Enos 1:2, Enos explains that his experience was a "wrestle" that he had before God. He said his soul "hungered" (Enos 1:4) as he knelt down to pray. He prayed all day! a good 12 hours perhaps! And then his prayer was answered with a forgiveness of sins. And why did he receive a forgiveness of sins? Because of his faith on the Savior (Enos 1:8), he was purified.
I think we all have to go through our own internal struggles. This change may be invoked by our trials as we try to draw strength from them, but I believe the true refinement takes place in the deep chambers of our hearts. As we strive to know our Savior, we tend to become more like him, and we bring forth good fruit. Then we discover more impurities and allow God to purify us again. This pattern is a cycle we encounter until all of our dross is removed and all that is left is a pure metal. What happens at this point? The metal is so pure that the Goldsmith's face is reflected in us. We become so pure, that his continence shines in us. Our visage resembles his, so that the people who don't know Christ can know Him because they know us. It is an extraordinary thing. And all the while, the Goldsmith and master is keeping diligent watch over us and our progress. We are Never Alone in our refinement.
"That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ" (1 Peter 1:2). Let us seek to develop in us the gold that does not perish through the trial of our faith within ourselves so that we may be found pure at the appearing of Jesus Christ.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Don't Let Virtues Be A Vice
This semester I have been sufficiently humbled. I struggled in my degree, I struggled in my relationship with God, I struggled in my marriage, I struggled in about every aspect of life. I do not say these things on an extreme level, as the connotation denotes, but in the sense that I have not met my own goals or ambitions to the extent that I would wish. By saying this I do not wish to discount everything I said in my last post, but only to say that I am capable of better, and I have not wholly done my best.
This semester I had to come to grips with reality. I can't do everything I want to do simultaneously. I need to focus on one thing at a time, line upon line. This is something I have had to relearn. Isn't it interesting that through our mortal probation and essentially, our "test in life" we constantly have to review what we have studied, or learned. At least this is the case with me. I suppose I am human enough that I need constant, repeated lessons.
This past semester I was focusing on many things at once, which is expected, since at the university we are supposed to be learning many things at once. I was focussing on being a good wife, trying to fit time into my schedule for my husband, trying to learn to be a good singer, trying to be a good student, good member of the church, good friend, good family member, and god intellectual. I was trying to capture the spirit of learning, maintaining a good spirit in our home, being on good terms with my teachers, trying to not get sick, and show my love for my husband. All these little things add up! And these things are good things, but I have come to conclude that I need to focus on one or two things in all these categories, not every aspect of every category all at once. This would only slow down the learning process.
This past General Conference President Uchtdorf spoke on this matter. He said that it is easy to get busy, and when tough times come, it is easy to speed up as opposed to slowing down. It is as if an increase of pace will fix the problem, or in more palpable terms, it will speed up the time or event to make it that much more bearable. What happens happens. But this simply is not the case, we will be more benefitted if we slow down to attend to our problems then running away from them. We will learn so much more if we slow down and wholly learn concept than if we are cramming for a test or lesson we have to pump out.
This is especially applicable to me as a student. Welcome to the life of a music major. Everyone wants to finish on time, but hardly any music major does because unless things are planned out perfectly and everything goes perfectly, it won't be the case. So every music major is trying to finish school as fast as they can. I can't debate with that. I understand the motives of trying to finish fast. In my case, I want to start a family, I want to finish around the same time as my husband, I don't want to be an eternal student (well, sorta, I still want to be learning eternally). Also, a music major's schedule consists of a lot of classes, all about 2 or 1 credits each. This is not simply because the classes are easy. No sir. They are challenging and time consuming. It is because a music major has to take so X number of classes and there is a credit limit for the degree. I typical music major will be taking 6-10 classes per semester, that is, if they want to graduate as soon as possible. A music major is well aware of their surrounding peers. We are a tight-knit group of sorts. Everyone knows everyone and everyone's story. We know that so-and-so has a full schedule. Wow. That is admirable that they can do so much! President Uchtdorf said something that was really significant, "Some might even think that their self-worth depends on the length of their to-do list. They flood the open spaces in their time with lists of meetings and minutia - even during times of stress and fatigue." The truth is that we should not be running faster than we have strength (Mosiah 4:27)
True, we should be anxiously engaged in good causes (D&C 58:27), but not to the point of fatigue. If we fatigue our bodies, we fatigue our mind and spirit. The three go hand in hand.
Some might think that it is a sacrifice that will be rewarded if they just keep going on the way they are for a period of time and then slow down at a later date. Sacrifice is the giving up of something for something better. The consequences of an unhealthily-busy schedule are not worth the end. It is not a true sacrifice, but a self-pillage of our resources: our time, energy, and capabilities.
This is not to say that we should slow down to the point of idleness. But only until we can substitute out anxiety with enthusiasm. In this life we have assignments. We may be a teacher, mother, father, student, employer, employee. Think about your assignment at this time. " Our assignments are varied and they change from time to time. Don't take them lightly. Give them your full heart and energy. Do them with enthusiasm. ..To do less than this will leave you with an empty feeling " (Marjorie Pay Hinckley). Please whatever you are doing in life, do it in wisdom. I know I am trying to do the same. And I am Not Alone. I know that I can turn to my God to direct my path and help me accomplish my goals, for they are His. I hope to accomplish what He would have me. I encourage the same.
This semester I had to come to grips with reality. I can't do everything I want to do simultaneously. I need to focus on one thing at a time, line upon line. This is something I have had to relearn. Isn't it interesting that through our mortal probation and essentially, our "test in life" we constantly have to review what we have studied, or learned. At least this is the case with me. I suppose I am human enough that I need constant, repeated lessons.
This past semester I was focusing on many things at once, which is expected, since at the university we are supposed to be learning many things at once. I was focussing on being a good wife, trying to fit time into my schedule for my husband, trying to learn to be a good singer, trying to be a good student, good member of the church, good friend, good family member, and god intellectual. I was trying to capture the spirit of learning, maintaining a good spirit in our home, being on good terms with my teachers, trying to not get sick, and show my love for my husband. All these little things add up! And these things are good things, but I have come to conclude that I need to focus on one or two things in all these categories, not every aspect of every category all at once. This would only slow down the learning process.
This past General Conference President Uchtdorf spoke on this matter. He said that it is easy to get busy, and when tough times come, it is easy to speed up as opposed to slowing down. It is as if an increase of pace will fix the problem, or in more palpable terms, it will speed up the time or event to make it that much more bearable. What happens happens. But this simply is not the case, we will be more benefitted if we slow down to attend to our problems then running away from them. We will learn so much more if we slow down and wholly learn concept than if we are cramming for a test or lesson we have to pump out.
This is especially applicable to me as a student. Welcome to the life of a music major. Everyone wants to finish on time, but hardly any music major does because unless things are planned out perfectly and everything goes perfectly, it won't be the case. So every music major is trying to finish school as fast as they can. I can't debate with that. I understand the motives of trying to finish fast. In my case, I want to start a family, I want to finish around the same time as my husband, I don't want to be an eternal student (well, sorta, I still want to be learning eternally). Also, a music major's schedule consists of a lot of classes, all about 2 or 1 credits each. This is not simply because the classes are easy. No sir. They are challenging and time consuming. It is because a music major has to take so X number of classes and there is a credit limit for the degree. I typical music major will be taking 6-10 classes per semester, that is, if they want to graduate as soon as possible. A music major is well aware of their surrounding peers. We are a tight-knit group of sorts. Everyone knows everyone and everyone's story. We know that so-and-so has a full schedule. Wow. That is admirable that they can do so much! President Uchtdorf said something that was really significant, "Some might even think that their self-worth depends on the length of their to-do list. They flood the open spaces in their time with lists of meetings and minutia - even during times of stress and fatigue." The truth is that we should not be running faster than we have strength (Mosiah 4:27)
True, we should be anxiously engaged in good causes (D&C 58:27), but not to the point of fatigue. If we fatigue our bodies, we fatigue our mind and spirit. The three go hand in hand.
Some might think that it is a sacrifice that will be rewarded if they just keep going on the way they are for a period of time and then slow down at a later date. Sacrifice is the giving up of something for something better. The consequences of an unhealthily-busy schedule are not worth the end. It is not a true sacrifice, but a self-pillage of our resources: our time, energy, and capabilities.
This is not to say that we should slow down to the point of idleness. But only until we can substitute out anxiety with enthusiasm. In this life we have assignments. We may be a teacher, mother, father, student, employer, employee. Think about your assignment at this time. " Our assignments are varied and they change from time to time. Don't take them lightly. Give them your full heart and energy. Do them with enthusiasm. ..To do less than this will leave you with an empty feeling " (Marjorie Pay Hinckley). Please whatever you are doing in life, do it in wisdom. I know I am trying to do the same. And I am Not Alone. I know that I can turn to my God to direct my path and help me accomplish my goals, for they are His. I hope to accomplish what He would have me. I encourage the same.
Semester's Events in Five Minutes
It is a new semester, and a long time since I have last written, I admit. My husband and I are at the beginning of a new semester. So I will focus on catching up on this last past semester.
A lot has happened. First off, and most importantly, my husband and I can't help but notice that over the semester we have grown more in love and understand each other more. Of course, we have had our share of miscommunication, disagreements, etc. But we have always grown closer for them - not further apart. Indeed, we are very happy and our love for each other grows daily.
I suppose the reason why I haven't written until now is that classes have been very busy. I was taking about 14 credits and was teaching at the university again. It was all a very enjoyable experience, just very eventful. Both my husband and I did well in our classes. I was taking seven classes and got A's in all save two. I would say that it was a successful semester for me. I rarely got anything but an A on my tests and I knew my material. I just love to learn!
It was also successful because I got better at teaching. I was more confident in front of my students and used the strategies I had experimented with the previous semester.
My husband's and my temple attendance was also good and we made time for each other. Life was great!
I also made choir again and sang at a few concerts. In one concert I was given a "half" solo, as I like to call it. It wasn't anything big, but it was a good experience and good practice for me.
I also have been blessed with a very good voice instructor. He is extremely interested in the individual. What I mean by that is, he will cater to their needs, he is encouraging (most of the time, as a music major, you only hear what you did wrong, rarely what you actually did right), and he personally advocated for me at least twice. He'll pull you into his office to talk to you if there is a concern. Keep in mind that this guy is busy all the time - but he takes the time to help the individual. Very Christ-like man. He was a good example for me in my teaching. I have always tried to cater to the individual in my class, but if it meant taking time out of my personal time, I was a little more reluctant to help, as I was very busy.
Even through all the stresses of the semester we have been carefully cared for by God. All our needs have been provided as we have been doing our best to live within our means and frugally. We have been well-provided for and cared for. Especially me because I have such a great husband!
Also this semester my husband and I were called into the nursery, but then released after a few weeks, so my husband could serve in the elders quorum presidency. Our had so many children that it actually took two nurseries to maintain an orderly class. Whenever the two were combined, it was very hard to control the kids. But all in all, it was a fun experience! I learned that my husband is very good with kids, even though he still doesn't think he is.
Consistently through the semester, we have held family/friend get-togethers on Sundays. We have held desert parties, dinner dates, and an appetizer social. These were just ways to get family and friends together that we hadn't seen for a while. We didn't do them every Sunday, but most Sundays we would try. It is kind of our way of carrying on the tradition of my brother-in-law and his wife before they left the university. We are excited to continue the tradition, especially since we have more family up here with us now!
Also, this year we passed our first date anniversary: Halloween day. We didn't get very many trick-or-treaters, and my husband and I didn't get to do much thanks to homework, but we did try to celebrate it a little. More than anything it was fun for us to share what has happened since then. We really have come a long way since then. As went over our favorite memories together, we concluded that there were many more to make.
I am so grateful that my husband and I have so much time left together. Even if something should happen to one of us, we take great peace and happiness in knowing that we have an eternity to live together. We are so happy for eternal families. It is good to know that we will Never be Alone in our endeavors. We have a partner and friend that will accompany us through eternity. I am grateful for my best friend who can sing me back our song when I have forgotten the words.
A lot has happened. First off, and most importantly, my husband and I can't help but notice that over the semester we have grown more in love and understand each other more. Of course, we have had our share of miscommunication, disagreements, etc. But we have always grown closer for them - not further apart. Indeed, we are very happy and our love for each other grows daily.
I suppose the reason why I haven't written until now is that classes have been very busy. I was taking about 14 credits and was teaching at the university again. It was all a very enjoyable experience, just very eventful. Both my husband and I did well in our classes. I was taking seven classes and got A's in all save two. I would say that it was a successful semester for me. I rarely got anything but an A on my tests and I knew my material. I just love to learn!
It was also successful because I got better at teaching. I was more confident in front of my students and used the strategies I had experimented with the previous semester.
My husband's and my temple attendance was also good and we made time for each other. Life was great!
I also made choir again and sang at a few concerts. In one concert I was given a "half" solo, as I like to call it. It wasn't anything big, but it was a good experience and good practice for me.
I also have been blessed with a very good voice instructor. He is extremely interested in the individual. What I mean by that is, he will cater to their needs, he is encouraging (most of the time, as a music major, you only hear what you did wrong, rarely what you actually did right), and he personally advocated for me at least twice. He'll pull you into his office to talk to you if there is a concern. Keep in mind that this guy is busy all the time - but he takes the time to help the individual. Very Christ-like man. He was a good example for me in my teaching. I have always tried to cater to the individual in my class, but if it meant taking time out of my personal time, I was a little more reluctant to help, as I was very busy.
Even through all the stresses of the semester we have been carefully cared for by God. All our needs have been provided as we have been doing our best to live within our means and frugally. We have been well-provided for and cared for. Especially me because I have such a great husband!
Also this semester my husband and I were called into the nursery, but then released after a few weeks, so my husband could serve in the elders quorum presidency. Our had so many children that it actually took two nurseries to maintain an orderly class. Whenever the two were combined, it was very hard to control the kids. But all in all, it was a fun experience! I learned that my husband is very good with kids, even though he still doesn't think he is.
Consistently through the semester, we have held family/friend get-togethers on Sundays. We have held desert parties, dinner dates, and an appetizer social. These were just ways to get family and friends together that we hadn't seen for a while. We didn't do them every Sunday, but most Sundays we would try. It is kind of our way of carrying on the tradition of my brother-in-law and his wife before they left the university. We are excited to continue the tradition, especially since we have more family up here with us now!
Also, this year we passed our first date anniversary: Halloween day. We didn't get very many trick-or-treaters, and my husband and I didn't get to do much thanks to homework, but we did try to celebrate it a little. More than anything it was fun for us to share what has happened since then. We really have come a long way since then. As went over our favorite memories together, we concluded that there were many more to make.
I am so grateful that my husband and I have so much time left together. Even if something should happen to one of us, we take great peace and happiness in knowing that we have an eternity to live together. We are so happy for eternal families. It is good to know that we will Never be Alone in our endeavors. We have a partner and friend that will accompany us through eternity. I am grateful for my best friend who can sing me back our song when I have forgotten the words.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
New Husband, New Name, New Life
Married life is great! What can I say more?
I was married in the house of the Lord about five weeks ago. Most of my family made it to the wedding and were all there to support me. The day before the wedding I went through the temple for the first time. My mother was able to escort me and my sister and grandmother were there right by my side and supporting me the whole way. I was grateful for them because they helped me during the process and gave me helpful hints. But mostly I was glad they could share in the experience. Afterwords, my family took us out to eat for the occasion. It was a good chance for me to catch up and see family and friends. I still couldn't believe that I was getting married in the morning. There were persistent jokes that, "It wasn't too late to back out now!" haha. I couldn't imagine not getting married!
Needless to say, I hardly slept that night and I was up very early that morning with my sister who was gracious enough to do my hair even though she had a small son she was taking care of and still wanted to get ready herself. I was in the temple by 7:30 and waiting for the groom. There were items of business that had to be taken care of and then we were on our way! My mom was allowed to fuss over me and help me get prepared. I was a little on edge because, well, it was my wedding day and I was a little nervous! I couldn't believe it was happening (though at the same time, I did believe that it was happening), and didn't exactly want to look perfect for the ceremony, but wanted to prepare myself spiritually. I just felt like I was being rushed from one spot to the next and was afraid I wasn't going to get the right spirit into my heart. When I was completely dressed, my mother left to be escorted(?) or find the sealing room, and I was left in the bride's room again. I said a silent prayer for a time and then felt as if I should look up. I almost expected to see my grandmother there who had passed on (I'm a little embarrassed to hold myself in such respect. I was hoping to see her or feel her presence). When I did, I saw the temple worker waiting to escort me. I was taken to a room where I found my husband-to-very-soon-be and we together were taken to the celestial room where we waited to be escorted to the sealing room. We sat together and talked. I noticed another couple in the room together. They looked so happy and content with what they were doing. I wondered what we looked like. I knew my stomach was not exactly treating me very well, as I had only a chance to eat a small snack on the way over in the car with my mom. I knew I was nervous, but knew what I wanted to do.
We were escorted up to the room and before entering, met our sealer int he hallway. He was so cute and personable! He was interested in us, and we answered more questions. Then we were admitted into the room. I had been told what I was supposed to do, so I knew what was expected of me, but not entirely what I would be promising to God and my spouse. My goal was to listen as intently as possible so that I might be able to more sincerely commit to my covenants while in the making of them.
When I entered the room, my fear melted away. There were so many people there that I loved and that I knew loved me. We were the center of attention, which I was not exactly used to, but I couldn't help but feel over-joyed. They were all beaming at me! I sat in the designated spot and waited, holding my mother's hand and the hand of my fiance.
The ceremony was beautiful, and I cried through the part that was meant for my husband to participate in. Our particular sealer didn't want us to look at each other, which was a little disappointing, but I am half glad that my husband didn't see me cry. (It wasn't the most attractive thing in the world :)
After it was over, we were able to look in the mirrors and then were directed into the hallway with our parents. We did so and then in the hallway my husband did finally get a little emotional. He was so excited that we were a family.
The rest is history! We went and got pictures and then we were eventually finding ourselves at our luncheon. Most of the things we planned didn't run so smoothly, but I didn't mind. I was a little bummed that our first dance was cut short due to technical difficulties, but I didn't mind much else too bad. I wished my sister's song could have worked out more smoothly with the microphone, and that we didn't have to take time out to fix technical difficulties, but overall, it was just nice to be there with friends and family. In fact, my favorite parts were being able to talk to those who came to support me. It was all very sweet.
Of course, and indisputably, the temple has become even more a jewel to me. I have to say,the first time through was not what I was expecting, but I just could not wait to go back to gain a better understanding. I almost think I have it strait now, as we have been back weekly. We even attended a session on our honeymoon! But I have been so excited to learn more and more. Also, the more I pay attention to the words being said, the more I realize that everything is in sync with everything in the scriptures and everything I had already committed myself to, though not officially. It motivates me more to become better and do better now that I have made those commitments under covenant to my Heavenly Father. Also, I keep learning more and more! God helps me learn in more ways tan one. I just have to be willing to listen and have an open mind.
In my experience, I have always considered myself a person who learns intellectually, by thought process, as well as by the spirit's witness. I found I definitely do need to utilize both simultaneously while trying to get as much as I can out of the ceremony. I need to cognitively think and then allow the spirit to guide my thoughts. I've had a lot of "ah ha" moments and think I"m catching onto the swing of things. Being a newbie, I feel incompetent a lot of the times, where at other times I am at peace with what I have been able to accomplish thus far. I have felt in the past as if I have been plopped into a whole new world and get to discover it! Because those things are sacred, there is no room to discuss them or make mention of them outside the temple. This makes learning happen all within the walls of the temple and consequently, for brief periods of time, which causes me to want to return time and time again.
In addition to the new knowledge I am gaining through study and pondering in my heart, I cannot help but notice the spirit that ever present in the Lord's house (Even when I am upset or struggling internally, I am at peace in the temple). For I do believe our Lord and Savior does reside there. I am humbled to think that I have the privilege to walk where He has walked. But when you think about it, that is also a commandment.
Jacob 1:8 reads, "Wherefore, we would to God that we could persuade all men not to rebel against God, to provoke him to anger, but that all men would believe in Christ, and view his death, and suffer his cross and bear the shame of the world." We are to become so close to Christ that we not only walk the roads of Palestine with him (The Living Christ), or rather, study his life and follow it, but that we also bear the consequences of such actions. Weather it be the sting of personal sacrifice or the spite of the world, we need to be with Him 100%.
Once again, I repeat, I am humbled to think that I have the privilege to walk where He has walked. In Acts 5:42 it says that the Apostles departed from a council of Pharisees and rejoiced that "they were counted worthy to suffer shame for his name." I know that I have covenanted at baptism to take his name upon me, and as a disciple of Christ, have the privilege of walking with him through the torrents of anger we have to pass through in this world. I know my covenants will keep me strong as I ponder over them continually in His holy house for I am Never Alone.
I am despised of the world because it would have me believe that I am uneducated or close minded to believe there is a God. I know that I am very open minded to believe in him - in a being I only know to be real by faith conceived from personal discipline (we can only receive revelation if we live worthy of that gift) and prayer. I am despised of the world because it would have me believe that I married too young and that I should have first lived for a time with my boyfriend to "test" the relationship. I know that I have done the right thing by promising myself to my husband and by making a covenant with God. Because we are young we will grow together, and grow stronger for it. Instead of being intimate with a number of persons I will only be intimate with one. This love, unfeigned and unspotted, will be allowed to flourish and not be detained because it is growing in all sincerity and without fear. I am despised of the world because it would have me believe that I should be in the work force to get personal gain for myself and my family. I know that I and my family will be more benefited by my dedication to them of my time and talents, not my money. Why should I be expected to contribute my time and talents to a company or business that I hold no eternal bonds or covenants with and to whom I do not owe my undeviating attention? I know that I and my family will be blessed for my effort to bless them.
How do I know these things? I have studied and know that science has actually proven these truths. Research has indicated that a child who has been neglected does not develop the same way a child tho has not develops. I use the word neglected very loosely. I this may include children whose mothers are not there when they come home from school, or children whose parents, while even at home, do not give them the play time they deserve. Also statistically, couples to cohabit are less likely to have a lasting relationship. Every relationship will have its bumps and ruts, but those who are willing to work through those in love and harmony will always come out on top and not sever ties. But those who are not committed will detach themselves the minute they face opposition. This results in a lot of heartbreak and is detrimental to children involved. As for a belief in God, this is also, ironically supported by study. The organization of the earth itself, is a phenomenon that is inexplicable to the mind which studies its diversity and organic chemistry in depth. It is unbelievable! And even scientists who study for years cannot remotely compare to the intelligence it took to create this world. Even Einstein admitted that it would be merely impossible to inhabit the world we do without a creator to have given it direction. Also, science is always changing. God, however, is not. And nothing science seems to adequately discover is contrary to what we already know.
Alma made a similar argument when speaking with an anti-Christ named Nehor, who was requesting that Alma give him a sign to prove that there is a God. Alma said, "The scriptures are laid before thee, yea, and all things denote there is a God; yea, even the earth, and all things that are upon the face of it, yea, and its motion, yea, and also all the planets which move in their regular form do witness that there is a Supreme Creator."(Alma 30:44) But Alma also says, "And this is not all. Do ye not suppose that I know of these things myself? Behold, I testify unto you that I do know that these things whereof I have spoken are true...Behold, I say unto you they are made known unto me by the Holy Spirit of God. ...for the Lord God hath made them manifest unto me by his Holy Spirit; and this is the spirit of revelation which is in me." Similarly, I cannot claim to know the things I know by the wisdom of men. For like Alma, I know of myself, but not by myself. I have also received a witness from God and I know these things are true. I know my marriage is pure, right, and virtuous. It has been sealed by the Holy Spirit of Promise (D&C 132:19) and there is none who can destroy that or undermine it. This is the foundation for my new life.
I was married in the house of the Lord about five weeks ago. Most of my family made it to the wedding and were all there to support me. The day before the wedding I went through the temple for the first time. My mother was able to escort me and my sister and grandmother were there right by my side and supporting me the whole way. I was grateful for them because they helped me during the process and gave me helpful hints. But mostly I was glad they could share in the experience. Afterwords, my family took us out to eat for the occasion. It was a good chance for me to catch up and see family and friends. I still couldn't believe that I was getting married in the morning. There were persistent jokes that, "It wasn't too late to back out now!" haha. I couldn't imagine not getting married!
Needless to say, I hardly slept that night and I was up very early that morning with my sister who was gracious enough to do my hair even though she had a small son she was taking care of and still wanted to get ready herself. I was in the temple by 7:30 and waiting for the groom. There were items of business that had to be taken care of and then we were on our way! My mom was allowed to fuss over me and help me get prepared. I was a little on edge because, well, it was my wedding day and I was a little nervous! I couldn't believe it was happening (though at the same time, I did believe that it was happening), and didn't exactly want to look perfect for the ceremony, but wanted to prepare myself spiritually. I just felt like I was being rushed from one spot to the next and was afraid I wasn't going to get the right spirit into my heart. When I was completely dressed, my mother left to be escorted(?) or find the sealing room, and I was left in the bride's room again. I said a silent prayer for a time and then felt as if I should look up. I almost expected to see my grandmother there who had passed on (I'm a little embarrassed to hold myself in such respect. I was hoping to see her or feel her presence). When I did, I saw the temple worker waiting to escort me. I was taken to a room where I found my husband-to-very-soon-be and we together were taken to the celestial room where we waited to be escorted to the sealing room. We sat together and talked. I noticed another couple in the room together. They looked so happy and content with what they were doing. I wondered what we looked like. I knew my stomach was not exactly treating me very well, as I had only a chance to eat a small snack on the way over in the car with my mom. I knew I was nervous, but knew what I wanted to do.
We were escorted up to the room and before entering, met our sealer int he hallway. He was so cute and personable! He was interested in us, and we answered more questions. Then we were admitted into the room. I had been told what I was supposed to do, so I knew what was expected of me, but not entirely what I would be promising to God and my spouse. My goal was to listen as intently as possible so that I might be able to more sincerely commit to my covenants while in the making of them.
When I entered the room, my fear melted away. There were so many people there that I loved and that I knew loved me. We were the center of attention, which I was not exactly used to, but I couldn't help but feel over-joyed. They were all beaming at me! I sat in the designated spot and waited, holding my mother's hand and the hand of my fiance.
The ceremony was beautiful, and I cried through the part that was meant for my husband to participate in. Our particular sealer didn't want us to look at each other, which was a little disappointing, but I am half glad that my husband didn't see me cry. (It wasn't the most attractive thing in the world :)
After it was over, we were able to look in the mirrors and then were directed into the hallway with our parents. We did so and then in the hallway my husband did finally get a little emotional. He was so excited that we were a family.
The rest is history! We went and got pictures and then we were eventually finding ourselves at our luncheon. Most of the things we planned didn't run so smoothly, but I didn't mind. I was a little bummed that our first dance was cut short due to technical difficulties, but I didn't mind much else too bad. I wished my sister's song could have worked out more smoothly with the microphone, and that we didn't have to take time out to fix technical difficulties, but overall, it was just nice to be there with friends and family. In fact, my favorite parts were being able to talk to those who came to support me. It was all very sweet.
Of course, and indisputably, the temple has become even more a jewel to me. I have to say,the first time through was not what I was expecting, but I just could not wait to go back to gain a better understanding. I almost think I have it strait now, as we have been back weekly. We even attended a session on our honeymoon! But I have been so excited to learn more and more. Also, the more I pay attention to the words being said, the more I realize that everything is in sync with everything in the scriptures and everything I had already committed myself to, though not officially. It motivates me more to become better and do better now that I have made those commitments under covenant to my Heavenly Father. Also, I keep learning more and more! God helps me learn in more ways tan one. I just have to be willing to listen and have an open mind.
In my experience, I have always considered myself a person who learns intellectually, by thought process, as well as by the spirit's witness. I found I definitely do need to utilize both simultaneously while trying to get as much as I can out of the ceremony. I need to cognitively think and then allow the spirit to guide my thoughts. I've had a lot of "ah ha" moments and think I"m catching onto the swing of things. Being a newbie, I feel incompetent a lot of the times, where at other times I am at peace with what I have been able to accomplish thus far. I have felt in the past as if I have been plopped into a whole new world and get to discover it! Because those things are sacred, there is no room to discuss them or make mention of them outside the temple. This makes learning happen all within the walls of the temple and consequently, for brief periods of time, which causes me to want to return time and time again.
In addition to the new knowledge I am gaining through study and pondering in my heart, I cannot help but notice the spirit that ever present in the Lord's house (Even when I am upset or struggling internally, I am at peace in the temple). For I do believe our Lord and Savior does reside there. I am humbled to think that I have the privilege to walk where He has walked. But when you think about it, that is also a commandment.
Jacob 1:8 reads, "Wherefore, we would to God that we could persuade all men not to rebel against God, to provoke him to anger, but that all men would believe in Christ, and view his death, and suffer his cross and bear the shame of the world." We are to become so close to Christ that we not only walk the roads of Palestine with him (The Living Christ), or rather, study his life and follow it, but that we also bear the consequences of such actions. Weather it be the sting of personal sacrifice or the spite of the world, we need to be with Him 100%.
Once again, I repeat, I am humbled to think that I have the privilege to walk where He has walked. In Acts 5:42 it says that the Apostles departed from a council of Pharisees and rejoiced that "they were counted worthy to suffer shame for his name." I know that I have covenanted at baptism to take his name upon me, and as a disciple of Christ, have the privilege of walking with him through the torrents of anger we have to pass through in this world. I know my covenants will keep me strong as I ponder over them continually in His holy house for I am Never Alone.
I am despised of the world because it would have me believe that I am uneducated or close minded to believe there is a God. I know that I am very open minded to believe in him - in a being I only know to be real by faith conceived from personal discipline (we can only receive revelation if we live worthy of that gift) and prayer. I am despised of the world because it would have me believe that I married too young and that I should have first lived for a time with my boyfriend to "test" the relationship. I know that I have done the right thing by promising myself to my husband and by making a covenant with God. Because we are young we will grow together, and grow stronger for it. Instead of being intimate with a number of persons I will only be intimate with one. This love, unfeigned and unspotted, will be allowed to flourish and not be detained because it is growing in all sincerity and without fear. I am despised of the world because it would have me believe that I should be in the work force to get personal gain for myself and my family. I know that I and my family will be more benefited by my dedication to them of my time and talents, not my money. Why should I be expected to contribute my time and talents to a company or business that I hold no eternal bonds or covenants with and to whom I do not owe my undeviating attention? I know that I and my family will be blessed for my effort to bless them.
How do I know these things? I have studied and know that science has actually proven these truths. Research has indicated that a child who has been neglected does not develop the same way a child tho has not develops. I use the word neglected very loosely. I this may include children whose mothers are not there when they come home from school, or children whose parents, while even at home, do not give them the play time they deserve. Also statistically, couples to cohabit are less likely to have a lasting relationship. Every relationship will have its bumps and ruts, but those who are willing to work through those in love and harmony will always come out on top and not sever ties. But those who are not committed will detach themselves the minute they face opposition. This results in a lot of heartbreak and is detrimental to children involved. As for a belief in God, this is also, ironically supported by study. The organization of the earth itself, is a phenomenon that is inexplicable to the mind which studies its diversity and organic chemistry in depth. It is unbelievable! And even scientists who study for years cannot remotely compare to the intelligence it took to create this world. Even Einstein admitted that it would be merely impossible to inhabit the world we do without a creator to have given it direction. Also, science is always changing. God, however, is not. And nothing science seems to adequately discover is contrary to what we already know.
Alma made a similar argument when speaking with an anti-Christ named Nehor, who was requesting that Alma give him a sign to prove that there is a God. Alma said, "The scriptures are laid before thee, yea, and all things denote there is a God; yea, even the earth, and all things that are upon the face of it, yea, and its motion, yea, and also all the planets which move in their regular form do witness that there is a Supreme Creator."(Alma 30:44) But Alma also says, "And this is not all. Do ye not suppose that I know of these things myself? Behold, I testify unto you that I do know that these things whereof I have spoken are true...Behold, I say unto you they are made known unto me by the Holy Spirit of God. ...for the Lord God hath made them manifest unto me by his Holy Spirit; and this is the spirit of revelation which is in me." Similarly, I cannot claim to know the things I know by the wisdom of men. For like Alma, I know of myself, but not by myself. I have also received a witness from God and I know these things are true. I know my marriage is pure, right, and virtuous. It has been sealed by the Holy Spirit of Promise (D&C 132:19) and there is none who can destroy that or undermine it. This is the foundation for my new life.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
When They Think They Are Learned They Think They Are Wise
Another semester is behind me, and I am ready to be married! But instead of talking about all the wedding preparations and the excitement of the future, I want to pause and take a moment to record my experience in one of the classes I was taking this past semester.
I had the wonderful opportunity to take an ethics class. It was a philosophy 300 level class, and the professor was intimidating. For one who had never taken a philosophy class of any kind, I was a little blown away during the first week. My professor is wanted at well-known and accredited universities such as Princeton, Yale, Brigham Young University (in Provo) and others. But he ended up at our university, with a little apprehension, after hearkening to the promptings of the spirit. This guy is the real deal. He not only teaches philosophy and logic at the university, but he also teaches religious courses. He has done some travel in his career, giving seminars. But, the class was an enlightening experience.
I did well in the class, despite the initial shock. I did well on all our exams, though most of my classmates failed theirs, and I did well on my papers, which was also unusual. I felt like I understood the material and took the time out to reflectively contemplate what I was learning.
But I do not say this to boast of myself, but to make the point that I understood the material to make my next point.
In the class we spent a lot of our time pointing out what was wrong with each theory. Thought the smartest minds of the philosophical world were put to use to concoct an ethical theory to combat the rest and solve life's mysteries, no on could do it. They all fell short (on a side note I loved the class because it also taught us how to think logically and thoroughly, though that was not the purpose of the class. It more turned out to be the direct consequence of our study.)
But the gospel is unquestionable. It really is flawless. How grateful I feel for the blessings of the gospel in its fullness! I think too many times we do not turn to the ultimate source of truth, but set it at naught (1 Nephi 19:7). Our hearts are just not in the right place. Our immediate attention is not centered on our Lord's church and gospel that he organized. It is a matter of pride. President Benson stated that there was no such thing as righteous pride, and Alma taught that wickedness never was happiness (Alma 41:10). We will always fall short if we do not turn to truth.
Speaking of when the gospel was first taken from the earth after the death of Christ, Jeffery R. Holland says, "Doctrines were corrupted and unauthorized changes were made in Church ordinances and Church organization. Scholasticism replaced inspiration, philosophy obscured what had been simple truths, and false ideas crept in everywhere. Much of the knowledge of the true character and nature of God the Father, His Son Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost was lost."We see that when we depend upon the arm of the flesh, we will lose the simplicity, yet precious truths that we take for granted. Nephi said, "for I know that cursed is he that putteth his trust in the arm of flesh. Yea, cursed is he that putteth his trust in man or maketh flesh his arm."
I love learning. The class was enlightening and inspiring, yet there was something missing, though I knew the material. I came to realize that we really are nothing. As Moses learned through his encounter with our Lord, man is nothing (Moses 1:10). There is nothing more satisfying and real than the gospel of Jesus Christ. And jointly, we can become what God intends for we are never alone. He will be there to make up the difference. Our "puny arm" of the flesh will become strong (D&C 121:33).
I had the wonderful opportunity to take an ethics class. It was a philosophy 300 level class, and the professor was intimidating. For one who had never taken a philosophy class of any kind, I was a little blown away during the first week. My professor is wanted at well-known and accredited universities such as Princeton, Yale, Brigham Young University (in Provo) and others. But he ended up at our university, with a little apprehension, after hearkening to the promptings of the spirit. This guy is the real deal. He not only teaches philosophy and logic at the university, but he also teaches religious courses. He has done some travel in his career, giving seminars. But, the class was an enlightening experience.
I did well in the class, despite the initial shock. I did well on all our exams, though most of my classmates failed theirs, and I did well on my papers, which was also unusual. I felt like I understood the material and took the time out to reflectively contemplate what I was learning.
But I do not say this to boast of myself, but to make the point that I understood the material to make my next point.
In the class we spent a lot of our time pointing out what was wrong with each theory. Thought the smartest minds of the philosophical world were put to use to concoct an ethical theory to combat the rest and solve life's mysteries, no on could do it. They all fell short (on a side note I loved the class because it also taught us how to think logically and thoroughly, though that was not the purpose of the class. It more turned out to be the direct consequence of our study.)
But the gospel is unquestionable. It really is flawless. How grateful I feel for the blessings of the gospel in its fullness! I think too many times we do not turn to the ultimate source of truth, but set it at naught (1 Nephi 19:7). Our hearts are just not in the right place. Our immediate attention is not centered on our Lord's church and gospel that he organized. It is a matter of pride. President Benson stated that there was no such thing as righteous pride, and Alma taught that wickedness never was happiness (Alma 41:10). We will always fall short if we do not turn to truth.
Speaking of when the gospel was first taken from the earth after the death of Christ, Jeffery R. Holland says, "Doctrines were corrupted and unauthorized changes were made in Church ordinances and Church organization. Scholasticism replaced inspiration, philosophy obscured what had been simple truths, and false ideas crept in everywhere. Much of the knowledge of the true character and nature of God the Father, His Son Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost was lost."We see that when we depend upon the arm of the flesh, we will lose the simplicity, yet precious truths that we take for granted. Nephi said, "for I know that cursed is he that putteth his trust in the arm of flesh. Yea, cursed is he that putteth his trust in man or maketh flesh his arm."
I love learning. The class was enlightening and inspiring, yet there was something missing, though I knew the material. I came to realize that we really are nothing. As Moses learned through his encounter with our Lord, man is nothing (Moses 1:10). There is nothing more satisfying and real than the gospel of Jesus Christ. And jointly, we can become what God intends for we are never alone. He will be there to make up the difference. Our "puny arm" of the flesh will become strong (D&C 121:33).
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